最近怎么了？所有发生的是巧合，是命运，或是恶运所带来的呢？

为什么上天要那样考验我的家人？！
这一个月的时间，生活得多么累。
我好讨厌这种生活，现在我才懂得，只是想平静地度过每一天，原来是那么难的。

这个月里，医院对我来说，已经是个熟悉的地方，可是却是我最陌生，最讨厌，最想逃避的地方。在医院里，我最长做的事情，就是强忍眼泪。每次看见身边的人躺在病床上，那种心里撕痛的感觉，我无法形容。对于外公，我是多么地愧疚自己，所以我懂，我明白，妈的心比谁都更刺痛。这次，是我这个月以来第二次看见妈哭泣。想起那天的情况，然后再站在外公的立场来想想，我觉得，我是多么地对不起外公！对不起，加油，gong!

我，只想要过着普通正常的生活，恢复我家人的健康，让我们可以继续简单地过活，好吗

today is not my day! seriously feel so depressed.

Guess what,I've lost my wallet at college.
Gosh! This is the 3rd time I've lost my IC! wtf!!!!!
I just cant forgive myself as being so careless! hmm :(

I am strong yet sometimes weak.

I used to be strong enough to kill away those sadness by myself
without sharing my sadness to anyone,even my close friends.

I used to be strong when I know nobody could helps.

"生死有命，富贵有天"

我们都不懂得那种感觉，但是我能想像，当自己即将进入手术室，也不懂得自己的命运会是如何，也只能接受一切上天的安排。那感受，会是如何？
我看了哥写的东西，我感觉快哭了。我想，他自己也在害怕着，只是不想让人担心，所以只把害怕常在心里。

我很好奇，我们每天所面对的一切，都是上帝的安排吗？
那，为什么上帝要把人们最珍贵的生命来做考验呢？
那种恐惧感，感觉快要让人窒息吧？！

从现在开始，我会不再抱着抱怨过活，不再为那些渺小的事情而生气。我会珍惜，每一天，每个来到我身边的人，每一秒的快乐。因为生命，都是上帝的安排，我们都不懂得，自己几时会离开这个色彩的世界，几时身边的人会离开，所以，每一秒，我只想把爱带个每个爱我的人。

希望每个人都能快快乐乐，健健康康地活着，为了爱你的人，也为了自己，活得更美好！

Chan Yee Wong

11 March via Mobile

生死有命,富贵由天,但愿身边每个人都开开心心,身体健康! — withSiawhuai Khor.

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  Siawhuai Khor 你打算把那八个字纹在身上吗？哈哈。加油！

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  Joanne Chin gambateh

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  See Ml 一切都会很好,所谓'好人有好報' , 加油! 加油!! *_*

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  Dave Choo bro, no worry!! everything should b ok. v always b wif u...all d best

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FEARS.. AND WORRIES

bad news came in a sudden. Bro was not fine last few days, he got fever and medicine allergic, gastric not functioning well too. His condition was not well. As you know,get fever after operation is a serious issue.
I was crying hard while heading to the hospital to look for my bro.
I think alot and I pray alot for him!
What I want is just my bro's healthy and I want him to stay in my whole life.
When I saw my bro was lying on the bed with carrying tubes,I really cant describe how bad the feeling was!
When I saw mom was crying,sis were crying,my tears came without control.

That few days,mom looks so much older as she cried alot, worry alot, went here and there all the time, spending time to take care of bro at hospital. It makes me felt so terrible as I couldn't help at all!
I cant describe how bad I feel for that whole week.

Anyway, thanks GOD,THEY save my bro. He is alright now. Hope that bro will get well soon and not gonna let mom  to worry again. Nothing much I want but just my family members to be healthy all the time!

get well soon ya,bro! ♥

你知道吗？以前的我，不懂得家人对我是多么的重要。
一直到最近，所发生的事情，让我深深明白，自己的心底处，唯一住着的是家人，他们对我是多么的重要。我是多么地心疼，每当看见那微落的他躺在病床上，手鼻子插满那针孔和管子，看见身边的人哭泣，我也更心疼与害怕！多么害怕失去他，多么害怕就这样失去了一个疼我的哥！
那前无所有害怕和担心，就快要让我窒息。

可是，回到学院，我却要努力的把所有的情感掩埋起来，努力的让自己好像平常般地嘻嘻哈哈，努力的控制那不好的心情，努力的不发他们脾气（做assignment的时候）。
也许，我们就是得学会这现实世界虚伪的礼仪，学会假装，学会如何压抑自己的真实性情，不是吗？！


此刻的我什么也不想理，也不会有心情去玩，每当想起他们在辛苦着的时候，我却什么也不能做不能帮，我会觉得自己很没用，就只能为他祈祷，希望他能赶快痊愈，因为....我们都好爱他。。。。

心疼，当你看见你最爱的人受尽折磨。

心疼，当你看见他们重不表现的脆落。

心疼，当你无法让他们让自己停止眼泪，停止操心。
心疼，当你无法做任何事情除了祈祷。

只想，让我继续爱“你”。

只要能让我继续爱下去，好吗？！

加油，为她为我为他们，也为"你自己"，加油。

早日康复，爱你爱你爱你,哥♥

All I want in my life is a simple and happy life.
I just want my family to stay healthy..
I love no one BUT JUST THEM!

爱旅行，爱自由

 旅行之意义并不是告诉别人“这里我来过”。是一种改变,让人的目光变得更加长远。在旅途中，你会看到不同的人有不同的习惯，你才能了解到，并不是每个人都按照你的方式在生活。这样，人的心胸才会变得更宽广,以更好的心态去面对自己的生活。—— 余光中

我是一个很爱旅行的人。我的梦想，并不是环游世界，是随心旅行。 就是啊，想脱离常规，不断地...不断地追寻自我，寻找自由。对我来说，旅行的定义是走进我所幻想的世界里，希望真切的现实中能暂时躲开一切烦恼，来一次美妙的旅行，去某个远方，寻找另一个自己，不被束缚的自己，自由自在的那个自己，快乐生活的自己。。

我想，我们一生应该要有一次冲动的旅行，任性的旅行 ，一定要趁我还年轻的时候，利用那一份勇气，花自己赚来的钱，去一个很遥远的地方。
旅行最重要的，不是结果，而是放下一切去感受当下的过程。旅行的一切都是未知数，我想 这也是旅行的最大诱惑所在吧 。。

我在等待着那一天，用自己的财富让自己寻找我想要拥抱的天空。。。 

*27岁，我的旅行梦想，究竟能实现吗？！

停留过的足迹

2010 : 桂林

2011：香港 （大爱香港夜景） 

2012：九寨沟
（大爱最天然的蓝天绿地，初见的雪地）

DREAMLAND: 未来的足迹

Dream island 1: TURKEY ♥

Dream island 2: MALDIVES ♥ 

Dream Island 3: PARIS ♥

Dream Island 4: SCOTLAND ♥

Dream Island 5: AUSTRIA ♥

-KUFSTEIN ♥

-HALLSTATT,AUSTRIA ♥

- TYROL,AUSTRIA ♥

"DONT BE TOOOOOO CALCULATIVE!"

somehow i find that we are all very calculative over our action.
I admit that I am guilty of doing this too.
more often to my family,and sometimes to my friends too..

 "DONT BE TOO CALCULATIVE in life!!
That is something very close to heart.
I wish one day I can truly surpass this mental barrier like how those people did.
TO SERVE IS TO GIVE! :)

*well,easier said than done. haha =X

薰衣草的花语 —— 等待爱情 !♥

总是有人提起 薰衣草，在日常生活中有特别多的用途.. 可是..究竟它包含着什么象征意义？

薰衣草(LAVENDER)的花语 —— 等待爱情

薰衣草香没有玫瑰花那样浓烈的情绪，也不像百合花那样淡然，却怎样都抹不去。
记忆就象薰衣草，曾经在这里发生的故事如同昨日烟云，淡远而温和，淡到极处，又刻在心底……恍惚的一瞬，才明白薰衣草花语就是等待……

等待爱情…… 只要用力呼吸，就能看见奇迹、等待无望的爱 :)

FRIENDSHIP ♥

Somehow i really liked the love of friends... the package of friendship. ;-)
it is like a constant book always written, waiting to be read, and enjoyed.
we may have our disagreements... we may argue... we may concern one another...
But friendship is a unique bond, that lasts through it all.
a part of me is put into my friends, some of it is my humor, some of it is my listening ear, some of it is real life experiences, some of it is my romanticism....BUT with all, it is FRIENDSHIP!


friends, you and me, you brought another friend, and then there were three.
we started our group, our circle of friends, and like that circle,
there is no beginning.. or end!

Life is wonderful 

IF you know how to live it!!

see less with your eyes.... then your heart will tell you everything! 

CHRISTMAS is around the corner. hoho 

it is year end!! year end!

another year gone! and here we're going to celebrate another new coming year

wonder how time flies...

and how i live my life in this whole year of 2012?

i think it is a good ques. 

hmmm... to me,my 20th years is enjoyable one 

but not really wonderful. 

cause what, life wouldnt be wonderful ALL THE TIME,isnt it =)

=( exam is on next week but revision just started. seriously stressed up!

 "be ready for acca all the time",is what i told myself. 

chill! it wouldnt matter! perhaps.... 

*do appreciate some of your supports and encouragements in this short period!! hehe ;) you know who you are! 

ERIN ♥

live-with-love♥

DONT DO THE STUPID THINGS WHEN YOU'RE ANGRY

no one is right or wrong. you know everytime when there was an arguement, there would come with a few version of story that telling what is going on and saying who did wrong. firstly,it's the two main character who involve in the fight. It was like "I will have my own version of story,and you would have your version of story". Lastly,it comes with the 3rd party version of story too.

You should know ya when you're pissed off, probably you would make a wrong judgement and you're such an evil right at the time. Then you would tell them your story plus some of your own thinking in it,and make the things go worse! you know why? cause everyone will lied on their judgement to make themselves better off or so that they could be trusted.
Remember, only do the judgement when you are really calm and free from any hard feeling toward someone.
If not,you would regret for whatever you did when you was angry, and you'll hurt someone too...