我，很累，很懒，很压力，很挂念你,你,你....

结束了我的旅假='(

我说，我很压力...翘了差不多两个星期的课，心想惨了惨了，要考什么也不懂！怎么办呢？还剩那四天的时间，我能搞定吗？我头脑一片空白..*blur blur...压力，哇靠，我要被压死了。这次告诉自己，没有美美的成绩了，但一定要过关，要不然我会哭惨了。*GOD BLESS

我说，我真的很懒去碰书。没办法，尽量吧

我说，我很挂住我的朋友仔们:'(。算了算，真的有一个月了，我真的很想念那几个好朋友。很久没和你们坐下来说笑了，有没有？！拜托快点让我考完试，好让我可以跟他们叙旧吧...

尊重!

要是我没说过那些话就好了！要是我可以掌控好自己的情绪，要是我人类可以驯服各类野兽，但，舌头却没有人能驯服～我们都很容易就n会说些愚昧的话，甚至伤人的～然而我们是否该"约束嘴唇"呢？尊重别人之余也尊重自己...

something to share =)

me: 暧昧，并没想象中的好，可能那一刻会感觉到非一般的甜蜜，但过了一阵子，闷了，那他就会找另一个去暧昧，而那个傻傻的你，就只是他那一刻要来解闷的。暧昧，是个陷阱，到头来，最伤的是自己。只是在想，如果没要在一起的意思，那么就别搞了，还是别来碰我好了。暧昧，我玩不起。

@：暧昧是，比好朋友亲一点，但比恋人远一点；暧昧是，你会常在QQ等他在线，当他几天不在，你就会有些担心；暧昧是，你会不时去看他的微博有没有更新，而且会留意字里行间，他对你有没有什么暗示；暧昧是，有感觉，然而，这种感觉不足以叫你们切切实实地发展一段正式的关系。我们暧昧，我们却不属于对方。

me: do you have this type of feeling sometime?

@：Sometimes when I say "I'm ok" I just want some one to look me in the eyes, hug me tight, and say, "I know you're not."

me:不要把自己搞得那么悲哀，其实也没那么伤感。我们都不应该活在伤心 的世界里，让自己走向快乐的根源，好过一直活在回忆中吧 =)

@：曾有那么一段时间，躺在夜里，一个人却怎么也睡不着，夜因此而漫长。在那些日子里，想一切关于我们之间的事。追忆，追忆，还是追忆，已经成为一种习惯。渐渐的，让自己爬起来，让自己远离悲伤。感慨了良久，似乎明白那些早已经落幕，现在只剩我一个人享受孤独。

me：不！真正的忘记，不是说删了关于他所有的一切就可以忘得了，那，只不过是逃避，是再欺骗自己对他早已没感觉！那是愚蠢！真正的忘记，真的不用很刻意地去忘掉！真正的忘记，只需要时间。忘了那个他，可能要用上几个月？几年？没人懂。但，我相信着，时间会自然而然的把他从脑海里消失。需要的，其实正是时间！

@：忘记一个人最有效的方法是什么？删掉他的电话号码，删掉他的QQ，不要向别人询问他的消息，全心全意的专注一件事上，或是毁掉关于他的东西？------------真正的忘记是不需要努力的。即使还存着他的号码那又怎样，因为你知道你永远不会再拨出那一串数字。

me:friend would be the biggest thing,the hardest thing to discover. but it's the most important thing in our live,isn't it? may be at this moment,everyone of them would say "no matter what happen in the future, i would be the one who stand at your side and support you". BUT then when it reach the moment on real time, they would forget what they had said to you,and they would be the one who betray you, HELPLESS? ? you would feel that once you experienced it. i'm glad to experience that and i had learn some lessons from that. and I'm glad i found my true friend as well as i get to know whats the different of "friends" and "true friends". =)

@：交许许多多的朋友不是什么奇迹。真正的奇迹是当所有人都弃你而去的时候，还有一个朋友坚定的站在你一边。

me: yesh..so...we must look forward on tomorrow and start our every new day of life with a simple smiley face =)

@：Nobody can go back and start a new begining, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.

me:难道人类就是爱这样吗？一句喜欢，要不就在一起，要不就连朋友也不当了。为什么就是这样？难道选择不在一起，就不可再是朋友了呢？o.0

@：不甘心只是朋友 ------ 很多的感情，都因为一厢情愿，最后连朋友都当不成了。一些本来很好的友情，最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你，如果你没有反应，这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去了。表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，要不就连朋友都当不成了。然而你可能永远都不甘心只是朋友……

心墙

你的心有一道墙，但我发现一扇窗

偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光

就算你有一道墙，我的爱会盘上窗台盛光

打开窗你会看到悲伤融化♥

15/3/11

15/3/11?????

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY"

a birthday wishes for eloise,my classmate *hug

just now had a "carbo party" at kerr's house with kerr,melina and khaikiap. a nice one! =D

domino as our dinner.. yummy yummy~ finally got it!

sometime look at the people around and when you find that they are so sweet

a feeling of jealous appear and a mind of "what if my beloved doing the same thing for me?"

14/3/11

oopps.. feel like im so unlucky recently

i spoiled my house computer and also netbook

gosh... everything touched by me it'll then broke

im that "black"? NO,change it! LUCK lai LUCK lai! =D

emm.. this week gonna be another busy week

3rd sem really killing me! i hate it!

but alright, there are just few weeks to go ^^

tues presentation in english, my group title is "SENTOSA VS GENTING"

i think it's not that hard,cause i know genting well haha

thurs TAMADUN test again =/ oh no,again tamadun! but at least this time is better,just one chapter is included in the test. well~i had read the chapter =D no worry

next tues another test to go, OHR! shitt,im weak in this subject! why i say so?

ahaha..is because i always ponteng for this lessons and yet i havnt do any revision on it

9 chapter..oh no! imma gonna die! 1 week need to study for all the 9 chap,can i finish it on time???? o.0

HOHOHO~ =D next wednesday go HongKong lur.. *countdown for it...weeee!

【应该抛弃的几个心理】

1.自卑心理—磨损你的个性

2.怯懦心理—深思熟虑都不敢表达，缺乏魅力

3.猜疑心理—无端猜疑，捕风捉影招人厌

4.逆反心理—爱抬杠来表现标新立异

5.作戏心理—表面文章，没有深情厚谊

6.贪财心理—互相利用，过河拆桥，毁了自己

7.冷漠心理—态度孤傲，让人难以接近。

惨了惨了！7中5

我~ 有点自卑，我有点胆小，我有点怀疑，我有点叛逆，我有点冷漠~

好难抛弃啊~ 但还是会尽力去改变的~嗯嗯~

GOD BLESS!

japan and yunnan's earthquake are horrible!

GOD! bless those who are there involved in the disaster!

oh,8.9 lvl of earthquake! kill out of 1500 and more people!

RIP for those who are death in the disaster.

节哀顺变 for those who lost their beloved,

and for those who are still fighting for their life,gampateh!

please dont give up easily,be brave enough to fight for it!

people,please pray for them! and please dont laugh on those japanese

they are also people like us. Dont you all feel so sympathy to them?!

gurls and guys,please save the earth la!

our environment had become terrible and more terrible!

i wish that there wouldn't happen any hprrible disaster like this!

i wish that it wouldn't happen like whats we had seen in the movie of 2012!

everything is unpredictable,so,cherish whats we are having now~

11/3/11

hang out with ivon and wind at times square today

we were there chatting rather than shopping ><

sat at the restaurant for few hours and chat lots

shhh..cant tell whats we chat! it's SECRET! *LOL

had a simple walk for awhile than back to hometown together

^^ bought a novel at popular sales

" february FLOWERS" by one china's author but it's in english version

my english is not well thats why i should read more =)

enjoy reading novel instead of doing revision for my test on next week =/

someone find me hang out and yamcha

but i rejected! am i too bad?

nop. i'm not. i'm not!

i just feel too weird when we hang out =S

星星

曾经，我为那个他，用我的真心折了这些星星

虽然已经不再和那个他有任何联络

但，我还是会收起来

等到了哪一天

我会把它拿出来给我心爱的人看

我每一次爱一个人会是多么的真诚的去看待

等到了哪一天

遇见了一颗真正喜欢的他，

我会把它拿出来，提醒着自己，不再放弃了

等到哪一天

我会折过那么一瓶完整的星星给那个我最爱的他♥

10/3/11

everythings goes back normal! =)

well~ just want to live like that,in a simple way of life!

In doing assignments,i found that conflict is the matter that cant avoid

no matter how close we are,or how friendly we are,

when it comes to assignment or group work/task

arguement and disagreement will happen..

but anyway,after few hours or a day,everything will run back to neutral.

this is whats da meaning of "best friend" =)

爱？情？两个很难写的字

回忆味着的是思念

然而有些思念会带来我的微笑

有些思念呢可会带来隐隐作痛的心伤

有的选择，我当然会选那给我带来微笑的思念

毕竟，我想要的是开心与快乐

突然谈天，说起那个“他”

我真的不想在意，但我还是很想去知道

到底我们有的是什么问题！

我说，我真的很讨厌那个他！

朋友说，为什么要讨厌？毕竟是个你曾经喜欢上的他，就不能把他当朋友吗？

我真的很想，但！是他是他不给那个机会淡化我们的关系

是他是他不把我当朋友，他都不要了，我还要干嘛

是他是他让我感觉他在讨厌我，那我也很讨厌他啊！

朋友说，为什么要从朋友当好朋友再当感情越来越好到一个阶段的时候，只要一方出现哪些问题，或者说谁停下了脚步，就不可以保持那段友情？然后就会还要讨厌着对方！

有些人越是在意越是要表现的讨厌，爭对，好像他自己那样，就是这样的，他会应为在乎那女孩，而在他面前表现的不在乎，不喜欢的样子

我说，你的可能是，但我和他，不可能是。我不懂，我说我不想再去在意，因为毕竟他有的是他女朋友。没人在乎些什么了！

朋友说，爱情真的很烦，真不懂你们女生想些什么

我说，很简单，这个是理论，我们女生也会说，到底你们男生在想些什么啊

我说，爱情，我不相信一见锺亲

朋友说，爱情，真的要从朋友开始（恩）

我说，但怎么说，对朋友产生感情，尤其是好朋友，有点困难，因为不会开口，又怕伤害的是彼此难得的交情，机会很渺茫吧，而且，我们女生都不可能说出来的啊

朋友说，恩，很矛盾，当然女生开口的话会不好，男生如果喜欢的话会行动的

............................

爱情，都不会理智的发生，我说，很难吧!要等到一个可以爱我的，有些难！

恩。等待吧！只能这样说～

awesome weekend,cant the time stop at this min? =(

saturday morning went to ACS for taking the SPM award

oh sweat... im bored,waited for 2 hours at there

meet mayginn,ah chua,calvin,cheah,boonsheong,honglien,yugen,kiewminyee,peizhen

all of the 5S gurls and guys there, but not any 5G gang

im not so closed with them actually and thats why i was so bored there

after that fetched by bro-in-law and straight away went genting

went with 2nd sista,his husband and his son(my naughty nephew) and also 3rd sis

had fun with them especially when saw that my nephew was so so so so happy =)

met up with baby before i left genting

ate MCD as our dinner... this time treated by him again

oh thankie so much! :) had a great chat with him

at night we stayed at a hotel which just stand opposite of KLCC.

nice view and great hotel! i love it much

the next morning went to KLCC by sitting the "cute cute" car which is the service prepared by the hotel. This is what i like the most,whats a great service hotel!

end..............................................................

haiz,finished an awesome weekend with family BUT then distressed and annoyance come forward again! =( sobad.. dislike this type of feeling,so so so depressed! =( when think bout study and coursework,seriously blank of mind! =S

tomorrow early in da morning need to take bus go back TT wuwu..

class again =/ assignment again =/ oh shiittt.. this thurs presentation!

GOD BLESS i can finish up this all thing on the time

人，为什么要背叛自己的心？♥

Everyone who says she or he does'nt want to be in love,there must be someone without possibility in their hearts! isn't it?

原来每个人的心里，都是这样的反抗～

口说：不了，不想谈恋爱～但

心却说：不了，我还在等待那个不可能拥有的他～

人就是这样的背叛

明知不可能拥有的，却硬硬去追求

明知不会得到什么，却硬硬不肯放弃

人啊～真的是。。。

有时有在想，为什么要这样

如果眼前有一个更好的，为什么不看下

反而把双眼注视在那个不可能拥有的家伙

可是，心里另一个它却说：要靠感觉走

但，很多时候，有感觉的，却都得不到

没感觉的，好的是，却爱不上，怎么办～haiz

2/3/2011

oh get crazy with this "tamadun" this few days =/

but luckily,today sat for test,it was quite well

no worry,it wont fail me at least! LOL

enen~not seriously focused on that

i was playing my facebook all the time actually.

haha...how "concentrated" am i?! LOL

this show that im not a book worm okie. i hate books! except entertainment magazines..ahaha

facebook chat with someone who totally forget me for a period of time =( this call "friends",when im needed then may be misscall and phoned me a lots...but when im not needed anymore i was just being thrown away from him apart) ish ><

soul mate? the most important people in our life

“A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet,

because they tear down your walls and smack you awake.

But to live with a soul mate forever?????? no...Too painful.

Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.

A soul mate’s purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit,

show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in,

and make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life.”

– Elizabeth Gilbert

nah...this the reason why are there always a soul mate who make us heartbroken and brokenheart

Just to make us awake and know what's the reality of life

and out of control and then have to change our life style or thinking level

just to make ourselves better off!