爱是什么？是命运的安排，还是你我的选择

爱是什么？

爱是一场未知的赌局。赌上的是你的人生，可能一两年也可能是十年也可能二十年。
爱是一场赌局。找到好的，那你的人生算是赢了。找到不好的，你还能说什么？！只能怪自己为何当初选择他？当初为何要爱上，输了哭了也不能怪任何人，这条路是你自己的选择。该留下？该停止？还是该退出，不是你想要就算。

爱是就像是纹身，在你的心纹上你们一起走过的一切。要删除，唯有把自己的肉割下，那撕裂的心痛又有谁能够忍受。

爱是愚蠢的。明知道需要付出许多的代价，或许付出的是你一辈子的人生，你还是选择了付出，无论最后他是否给自己带来了一身伤。

爱不是童话。你想要活得像白雪公主，遇上一个白马王子，然后甜甜蜜蜜地在一起。可是现实中却遇上很多瓶颈，吵架似乎已经是你俩的习惯。

当你没办法抽身离开或回到原地的时候，或许你只能告诉自己，这是自己的选择，无怨无悔……

24岁的迷茫人生

我有回到这这心情角落咯。

真的好久没发文章了，大家过得怎样呢？！

不知不觉毕业了靠近两年的时间，来这陌生的地方（🇸🇬）工作也有靠近一年半的时间了，时间过的真快呀。我可不想那么快长大呢，好想念好想念以前被呵护着地过生活。
在这里工作，接触了那么多不同的人，看见了那现实的社会，突然觉得自己的心里很苦闷。工作是okay的，比起其他公司这不差，也很好，时常让我有些机会接触不一样的东西。可是日子久了，认真的想着，究竟这一年半的时间里我学了些什么。自己好像过着很迷茫的生活。每天重复着一样的工作，然后等放工，等休息日，等假期，等回家，然后等着去花钱去喝酒去用金钱买快乐。为什么我好像被生活被金钱牵着鼻子走，为了生活而生活，为了生活而努力赚钱，为了能花钱而赚钱。

目标呢？怎么好像没了目标没了梦想？迷茫的我对自己说，给我些时间去改变，给我些时间去寻找我最初的梦想。

Happy x'mas! 胡闹的时刻

请原谅我，最近的胡闹。酒，是我最好的陪伴。同事，就好像我的暂时止痛药，有了他们，我可以短暂地忘了我是谁，忘了我的忧伤，忘了我的心痛。

害怕长大

一年前的我22，读着书，享受着学生生涯，幸福地伸手就有钱拿的，不知钱难赚，不知足的小孩。那时的我，渴望的，是自由，想要离开家里、想要爸妈不再管我。

而现在，今年的我23，踏入了这现实社会靠近一年了，用着的是靠自己双手赚取的钱，花的是自己血汗钱，那份满足，让我很快乐。可是，钱难赚，生活不再简单，而是需要努力地工作换取来的，这社会，要学会的是如何沟通，要面对的是上司和客户，有时还得看脸色。

以前的我，渴望的，是自由。而现在的我，只想要依偎在父母身旁。工作了，离家里远远的，每次久久见一次，总是很想念很想念，每一次离开，总是很不舍得，好想哭，好想哭。才发现，我很爱我的家，我的家人，我的爸妈，我的侄儿，那温馨的家。

我不想要长大，想留在爸妈身边撒娇，想留在他们身边拥抱哭泣，想回到那温暖的怀抱。

我今年23，不年轻了，不再想长大。。。。

原来一切都是自己想太多…生命有很多应该去珍惜的。

无论是友情💓亲情💓还是爱情💓

所以有时间的话都应该主动去找他们

要知道他们是你生命中最可贵的人

缺少了生活就没了意义不是吗

而我很爱很爱你们

所以无论我做错了什么

请告诉我

也原谅我好吗

因为太在乎，所以才会那么敏感

对不起了

才知道你们是最好的:')

我回到了以前那个闷闷不乐的自己吗？
最近好像回到了以前，以前那个孤独的自己。
要学会的，是回到那个习惯孤单的自己。
要学会的是宽容的心，

好想回到那读书生涯，身边有的是随传随到陪自己过时间享受生活的人
突然想逛街就找朋友陪我逛，突然去喝喝茶聊聊天，一大伙儿去唱k,去看戏，去吃好吃的，一大伙儿一起吃火锅，一起拍照，一起说笑，一起乱走，一大伙儿地说上云顶就这样去了，一大伙儿太无聊说聚会就聚会，大半夜不睡觉，到朋友家一起玩游戏beh beh酒，无论游戏多烂，被画鬼脸被罚喝酒被欺负被群攻。。玩起来还是一样令人大笑不停。

如果日子永远是那样就好，如果朋友不会有分离就好，如果人类的心永远那么真诚那么永恒就好。。

现在剩下的是自己，努力奋斗的自己，向事业发展的自己，加油吧。

这阵子让我看见很多，想了很多，明白了很多东西，可是，收在心里自己懂就好。
这阵子有开心的伤心地，开心的事是我终于考完acca啦，可以大声地喊声：I am now an ACCA Affiliate!! 不用再 考试那是重点。虽然那样，可是工作看得不是那些毕业的纸张，而是实力，奋斗，所以我也没看重自己。所以阿，给那些还没完成ACCA的朋友，你们也很棒，加油不要放弃，你们的能力比我强，有时看见你们那颗比我更奋斗的心，我反而觉得自己什么都不是呢。所以大家加油啦，我只是比你们多了些幸运。

伤心的事呢，ermmm，伤心的就别提了。
我很笨，喜欢把开心的事放小，伤心地事放大，搞得自己很悲哀般。
这也是我所谓要学会的事，应该做个聪明的人，be  a positive person!

cheer,开开心心生活吧，你已经很幸福了。
比起那些地震而失去亲人的人，我已经很幸福了。
为他们祈祷，为他们默哀。

很开心

因为我生气的时候

他总会想尽办发逗我开心。

爱你 

22th，new life, new target :)

生日又要到了。22岁，又老了。很害怕离“20”越来越遥远的感觉。

22岁，又是另一个新世界的开始，因为即将踏入这个恐怖的社会工作。

22岁，我想要的很简单，那就是幸福与快乐，有你有他，有朋友有男朋友还有最爱的家人。

22岁了，只想要自己做决定，不再是听别人的，依别人的话。

我要的很简单，只是那做决定的权利，人生是我的，决定权也是我的不是吗

我22岁了，可不可以给我自由，而不是害怕地还依偎在父母的胸口，像小孩般地受保护。

我长大了，这个世界很残忍，所以我该学着独立，学着如何去奋斗，学着如何去当个强者。

22岁，这是人生的另一个阶段，只期望那是美好的开始。

生日嘛，什么都不期望，不期望像公主般地开个生日趴，不期望身边朋友的惊喜还是庆祝，也不期望家人的吹蜡烛仪式。

我呢，只期望自己给自己个勇气，让自己去做自己想要做的事，不再被束缚，要做什么就什么，决定自己的人生道路，决定自己想要的生活。

还有期望跟我的爱人庆祝啦。呵呵

我不需要什么贵重礼物，只要你我能快乐的在一起 =) 

某人，我好想你 ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

sorry because i am a crying baby =(

ya,you wont know until you see the real me
i am a weak and useless person ever
who only know to cry over you
honestly yes,i agree with that
cause i feel that too

i have always cried
until now,i am already at age of 22
i am still a cry-er
i never seem to be in control with my emoticons
i always end up crying at night and fall asleep like that
i cry alot, i cry when i am angry,frustrated,arguing with someone,feel overwhelmed, stress or when people are too good to me and i feel i dont deserve it
and sometimes i could cry without reasons.
it's even worst when i start to have weird and negative thought like "why do i exist" "no one care for me" "I am so useless"
and then i'll simply cry on and on until i feel like i cant breath anymore

I wonder why i cry so easily and often. it's just so frustrating
can anyone stop me from being a crying baby
i have no idea at all
it's actually so annoying and i hate it!!
i hope someone can find me the reason, please

leave all those unhappiness behind

as life is all about happiness

what you have to do is continue to be a charming and happy girl 

just as simple as that.

QUOTE OF THE DAY :

no one appreciates a miserable person

so you might as well be a happy person around with

Please remember

Happiness is the only choice you can make

in order to live longer

----Rubyanne

TO ALL THOSE WHO STAYING BY MY SIDE:

peeps,I love you all lotsssss. sincerely!!!

love TRAVELLING - KunMing,Shangri-La

missing e COLLEGE LIFE

新年过了，假期过了，多享受和大伙儿们一起闹的日子吖

是时候回到原地，拿起书本，努力地奔向未来出发

还有几个月的时间就毕业了，可是那只是advance diploma毕业而已，

然而我还是得考完所有ACCA PAPERS才算真正毕业。

真不希望，工作了还得继续读书考试，

那忧闷的日子，我好想远离

所以，这一阵子，我会努力的，为自己的未来作努力

perhaps this will be the last exam i'd be sitting for. =)

work hard for the last, and I' am taken one step closer to my future! 

bro's marriage proposal

nothing to post. but just want to share you something that made me feel great and sweet.

LOVE IS JUST SO WONDERFUL,isnt it! =)

congratz to my brother for his marriage. and thumbs up for his marriage proposal. Now only I realized my brother is a romantic person. LOL

Guess lots of people would like to find someone like this in their live,right?! So I'm the one wish who wishing so much for that too. haha!

 

 

bye 2013, and hi 2014!

Hiii,have been away for so long time. so it's now the time to update my bloggie.. haha

aww at the same time, here come to the end of 2013, gonna say bye to it. and gonna give a huge lovely welcome to the year 2014. 

not only that, it also means that my two weeks of semester break will be ended here. 

an enjoyable yet boring holiday for me. my holiday is all about shopping and home. muahaha.

went to singapore with cousins to shopping and buy clothes for new year. we also went to UNIVERSAL again! as what i wish.. haha. finally i tried the transformers ride in universal. it's so so so cool enough!! that's the ride i love the most,hmm,maybe because it's my 1st time to have a ride on it other than others?! the mummy ride is wonderful, play twice until we cant shout anymore,that's the most great things we have. how good if malaysia could have open one UNIVERSAL STUDIO here, i think it'll earn alots. haha. and how good if i am one of the owner or vip there then i can play for times. outchhhh you know, SG dollar is now so expensive, conversion rate of 2.5 something, it's really painful when you pay for the money lol. but anyway, actually it's all because of malaysia RM is going to be cheaper and cheaper. there'd have no chances for us to survive in other country with using money earn in RM. Everythings in malaysia is so expensive right now, eg petrol sugar salt rice, goverment tax and so much and so much. It is a big question here on how to survive even in malaysia itself with just earning a basic salary?? i cant imagine how would my live be in the future if i am going to work here. 

okay,come back to here. today is last day of 2013. but actually nothing special. cause I have no event for celebrating this year. *crying. too bad!! 

in this 2013, it's all about smiling, all i can remember is just those happy and happening moment. i love my hometown buddies more and more, and sick of it when i stay far away from them. and i appreciate for the love story i've had. =)

looking forward to 2014 with lots of hopes. as 2014 would be another state of changes to my live. My study is going to be ended in half year time, and after all, it's all about working working and working. so, i wish time is passing slowly in this coming 6 months. :) 

Bet 2014 MUST BE a wonderful year for me and my family. as MAY 2014, it's a big day to my sista,her wedding day and NOV 2014, broda's weeding. nonetheless, i smile all the time because what, i cant wait for the new born baby in my house in coming february. hehe  it all warms my family. that's the thing which make me do love them much and much. smile for the coming year 2014, *just wish it'd be another great year for us. *clap clap. wohooo. COUNTDOWN GOING ON! *ps,i miss of MIXX clubbing time with buddies. 

anyway, HEY PEEPS, happy new year 2014! shout together! laugh together! And smile together! CHEERS

2014, CONTINUE THE LOVE TO YOU YOU YOU AND YOU...... 

MY FAMILY,  MY S'BAN BUDDIES, MY BF,MY COLLEGE BFF, AND ALL FRIENDS. 

I LOVE YOU ALL!!! *HUGE HUGE ! ^^♥♥♥♥♥